12 Weeks

This little one was very shy today.  The baby refused to face the screen and just kept flipping around.  So this shows the baby's head and back. We couldn't even get the hands or feet because the baby wasn't still long enough to get a good picture.

Back in March Landon started saying things like "Mom, I've never had a sister before."  Sam was much more blunt about the situation.  "When are we going to have a sister, Mom?  You need to give me a sister!"  I told them their was no guarantee that they would ever get a sister, and they were just going to have to wait until mom and dad decided to have another baby.

In April, Chris and I discussed it and decided that it would be okay for me to get pregnant again.  I could be sick and hibernate over the summer and it would be okay.  When nothing had happened by August we decided that we needed to stop "trying" for a little while so that the baby wouldn't be born over finals week, or during the BAR exam.  Then we'd be moving in August and I wanted to have a few months in our new home to get a new doctor and be prepared to have the baby in a new town.  Plus, the hospital here has recently changed it's policy and I would really have to fight to have a third VBAC, which is something I really didn't want to do.  So I thought we could put it off for a while and then have the baby sometime in the winter of 2014.

The Lord had other plans in mind.  I took a test on December 14 just to prove to myself that me being "late" was just because I'm getting older and my hormones were being funny.  I was wrong.  Chris was really happy and excited when I told him.  He was actually almost giddy about it.  I, realizing what was in front of me, felt some fear and trepidation about the whole pregnant situation.  Actually I was terrified because the torture of my pregnancy with Seth is still pretty fresh in my mind.  I  keep reminding myself that the Lord knows what's best for me and for our family and hopefully He will help me go into Labor on my own this time, and make it so the Hospital won't have time to prep me for a c-section.  OR He will provide another way for me to accomplish my goal of not allowing a policy to dictate how I recover from this pregnancy. The hospital administrators are really firm on this new policy and the only way to get around their stupid policy is is have my water break on it's own and have the baby so fast that they won't have time to prep me for surgery.   I really don't want to have to recover from a c-section.  The closest hospital that allows VBACs is almost two hours away, and I don't want to get mean or get anyone in trouble, but unless a c-section becomes medically necessary I 'm going to refuse to sign the consent papers.  What would you do if you were in my situation?  Really!  I'd like to know!  I'm out of ideas.

I'm now 12 weeks along and Due on August 20.  I'm already feeling huge.  I've been this big since about 8 weeks.  I really hate taking pictures of me when I'm pregnant mostly because a picture never really shows how large an awkward I really am.  BUT here's what I look like tonight.