The Ramblings of a Stupid Person

Have you ever had one of those moments when you think back on all the stupid things you've done in your life? I've been having one of those moments all week. I recently read a blog post that confused me and I realized that I was totally clueless and had no idea what was going on around me 5 - 10 years ago. In high school I wouldn't term myself as a loser. I wasn't in the popular crowd, but I could walk down the halls of school and say hello to most everyone. However, I realize that i probably should have been a loser with no friends. How anyone stayed my friend is beyond me. I was really stupid when it came to friends and relationships with other people. So here's a shout out to all of you reading this, who knew me in my high school years, and are still speaking to me.

I AM SORRY, FOR ALL THE STUPID THINGS I DID, OR DIDN'T DO THAT I SHOULD HAVE!!!

Because, hey when I ditched most of you for that boy, (who I thought was worth it, but wasn't) you could have told me to "get lost" when I tried to re-phase myself back into the group, but you didn't. Why did that boy like me anyway? Who likes a stupid person? I was probably one of the worst girlfriends in the world, and yet he wanted to date me. I know of a couple other boys who wanted to date me...and whoa...I'm still confused as to why.

When it comes to making and keeping friends I am really stupid about it. So to all of you who have forgiven all of my stupid moments in High School here's a big THANKS from me.

I won't even go into my college years! I became much more than stupid in college. I would go so far as to say I became the ulitimate moron. I was soooo oblivious to everything around me, wallowing in my own stupidity. So to all of my college friends who are still speaking to me:

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!

Please don't think I'm crazy or that I hate myself. I've just been thinking of stupid moments in my life. Not " what were you thinking when you did your hair that way?" stupid but "what were you thinking when you blew off your family to hang out with that boy every night?" or "Why didn't you study harder for that chemistry final so that when the grade came back higher than the "F" you acctually got, you wouldn't have spiraled into complete depression. Then you wouldn't have said those mean things to your roomates." kind of stupid moments.

I really do like myself, and I love my life! I really wouldn't change a thing because it's made me who I am, and because of many of those stupid moments I found the kind of person I want to be, but I was just reminicing in the bath tub, this morning and decided to have this stream of conciousness, shout out to all of you reading this.